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No..

WHY

Okay, I just need to go off for a bit to get this feeling out.
Here we go.
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WHY do you have to do this? WHY are you doing this to ME. The guy who has been TRYING to get over you for the past THREE MONTHS. You show NO advanced feelings for me. But now? As soon as I was STARTING to get over YOU? YOU ask ME to hang out with YOU after school. You tell ME that YOU would date ME again? Then during the day, YOU kiss ME numerous times. YOU hold MY hand. YOU hug ME like you used to when WE dated. When I kiss YOU, YOU kiss ME back. Now that I have asked YOU to go to the dance with ME, you say, "we're just friends. I don't want to confuse you." Yeah, okay. Because THAT is what would confuse ME. Why are you doing this to ME? It's obvious that I still love YOU. More than any fucking thing I ever have..
Lately, you have been making me feel like you want us to be together again.. I want you back so badly.. But.. I don't even know..

I still love you.

So, so much.
Maybe you just said what you said because you were upset?
I
Don't
Know.

All I know, is that I still love you.

I want you back.

You make me so happy.

I love you.

Loneliness.

Yet another year where I'm without a girlfriend on Valentines Day. It's not so much that I'll be sitting at home, alone. I really don't mind that. It just bothers me seeing all these happy couples, spending a "romantic" day together. I guess you could say I'm jealous. Well, I actually am. There's a girl that I like.. But I know she doesn't like me back. It's probably best that we don't date, because she's one of my closer friends, and she's helped me a lot. I know that she's there for me, and I don't want to ruin that. I never used to have a problem with not having a girlfriend. But now since me and my ex broke up, I've just felt lonely. I'm over her now, glad to be. I just want someone that I can hold and kiss again. I miss that feeling. The one that makes you feel all fuzzy inside and what not. I kind of wish the girl I like, liked me back. Then I wouldn't feel so lonely, even if we didn't go out. Oh well, it's life. I wish I could at least hang out with a girl on Valentines Day. Girlfriend or not, I just don't want to be sitting alone again.
 - Lonely.

Disabilities

Math class. Go fuck yourself. I guess my teachers will never understand how hard it is for someone like me with an Auditory processing disability, to concentrate in a math class. Last year, about two weeks into Grade 9 math, I just stopped coming to school because math was impossible for me to get work done in. It's not just the fact that I have a difficult time understanding and really taking in what the teacher is saying, its also how incredibly LOUD people are. Today, in the first class people were so loud that I honestly couldn't even hear myself think. I want to be able to do my math work in a different class. At least in S.T.A.I.R.S or something.. I really don't think I'll be able to make it through this semester if I have to stay in that math class. I was nearly in tears from the amount of frustration in the forty-five minutes. Life is so difficult..

Concussions..

So, I recently got what I guess was a pretty bad concussion. I mean, it was A LOT worse than the first time I got one.
I don't even know what happened. I just remember smashing the back of my head into the snow and my vision just vanished. Everything just went black. I heard this noise, it sounded like I was standing next to a helicopter with the blades running. Chopping the air, and spinning it around my body.
The part that really freaked me out was that I had seen the exact same thing before. In a dream, the exact same feeling, the noise, what I saw. As my vision slowly came back in the dream, I saw someone sitting across the hill and down from me. I had no idea who it was. When it actually happened, I could tell it was someone that I knew. Oh, I should probably mention that when there's pressure put on my chest, I can't breathe. As my vision slowly, spottingly came back, I saw her. unable to breathe, or hear anything. With my head spinning, I just laid there. I honestly thought I was about to die. Im my last efforts before what I thought was death, I tried to make my way over to her. I couldn't move. All of a sudden something just flashed really brightly white. I no longer heard the weird noises, and I could see again. My ears were ringing, but I was okay. Now, I'm having problems with remembering things. I can hardly remember anything from that point, to now. I don't even remember making this blog. Everythings just so strange.

PHURST!!11!1

Greetings,
I currently have no followers, but maybe when I get some they'll look back on this post.
I decided to make a blog because I often like to just let my feelings and thoughts ooze out, which some people find annoying. (More like everyone..)
Expect lots to come. (: